State of being free: Confession # 97
gabbergurl30:
This might sound a little selfish & juvenile but it has really been bothering me. I haven’t gotten anything that I want or need in my life for awhile now. I think the only good things in my life left me which made it even worse. Examples:
- Lost Travis.
- Lost my best friend.
- Lost two friends.
- Didn’t get accepted into any of the schools I wanted to go to.
- Didn’t get the scholarship I was almost guaranteed.
- Didn’t get any of the numerous jobs I applied for.
- Didn’t get the roommate I wanted for college.
- Didn’t get into the program I wanted for college.
- Didn’t get the exact schedule I wanted for college.
This really sounds like I am whining. But when are things going to look up & get better, because I keep losing everything. I don’t deserve to have lost any of that. None of it was in my control. All of these things hit me back to back. I just wish for once I would get something that I want/need. It’s not selfish to want to be taken care of is it? My mom even said that the universe has a block on me when it comes to receiving things. I only receive the bad, never the good.
Giiirrrrl. I feel ya. Here is my list-
my best friend Momo lives across the countrymy boss seems to love to hate memy father, who is my best friend, and one of two living relatives- has a terminal illness, in stage four. I don’t have enough money for school I dont have time to spend with my sick father because I am a full time student and full time at my job.Starbucks costs too much (if you go there nearly daily like I do. )
I lost a close friend I was nearly dating in December to a car accident. I am too stressed to eat,I feel as though I really don’t have any friends to lean onand my car is messy.
really mostly, it’s my dad. :/
But things will look up. I am sure of it. They have to. We just need to stick it out.